“It’s not the writing part that’s hard. What’s hard is sitting down to write.”
In The War of Art, Steven Pressfield really hit the nail on the head with that one.
As someone who has a supposed passion for writing, why do I never actually write anything? Five months ago I thought that by now I would be well on my way towards an award winning novel. In five months I have written zip. Zilch. Not so much as a single word. I’m okay with that. A little disappointed, maybe, but I’m not beating myself up about it. Sure writing is something I enjoy (in theory), but it is not crucial for me at this time in my life.
What IS crucial, however, is my lifelong struggle with balance, or lack thereof. Like writing, health and lifestyle is something I often think of, plan on, get over-the-moon excited about, but that eagerness seems to fizzle out as soon as words are expected to be put into action.
Yesterday I stumbled upon the foodie blog Can You Stay For Dinner?, and, after drooling over the recipes, was super-inspired by the author, Andie’s amazing weight loss of 135 lbs. That’s a lot of lbs. Especially considering how much she weighs now: 135 lbs.
I have struggled with my weight for nearly my whole life. Andie’s story, like all successful weight loss stories, is very motivating. What really struck me though, was that this girl writes a FOOD BLOG. To write a food blog, you gotta really love food. To meticulously experiment and photograph the things you make, let alone the whole writing part (which we’ve already agreed is difficult, right?), takes some dedication and passion. So how can this knockout of a former chubby girl still be swooning over sandwiches and sweets? Balance, I’d say. In her story, she writes about “making peace with food” and learning how to indulge and enjoy life without sacrificing all the hard work she put in to get where she is.
That’s what I want.
I eat well. I typically genuinely prefer eating healthy foods (broccoli is my true love). I am overall a pretty active person: I walk to and from work, enjoy biking, have dabbled in dance classes, not to mention hula hooping. Aren’t those, healthy eating and activity, the major keys to optimal health? Why am I such a far cry from being fit?
Ok so, I have a terrible sleep schedule, I eat when I’m bored (and boy, I am bored a lot), and I am completely disorganized, something that could be remedied during those bored phases. I have a somewhat rocky relationship with certain family members, and I come from a broken home.
In Malcolm Gladwell’s Outliers, he writes of Roseto, Pennsylvania, a town made up of Italian immigrants. During the 1950s, Roseto was a mystery to health researchers. While the rest of America was dying of heart disease, the residents of Roseto were dying of old age. The researchers could find no explanation for this based on diet, genetics, exercise…Eventually they concluded that what set this town apart was the sense of community. Close families, friendly neighbours. It’s a wonderful story. You should check it out.
Anyway, maybe that’s my problem. My family baggage, anti-social tendencies…
I’m often perplexed by why I have the struggles that I do. I consider myself pretty educated on nutrition, healthy lifestyle, etc. Sometimes I feel like if I did any more “good health stuff” I’d burn myself out. I HAVE burned myself out. A couple of times. It sucks.
But obviously, SOMETHING is not working.
So I have decided to don my proverbial sleuth’s hat and pipe, marry my passions of food and writing, and blog to my heart’s content about my journey to become a healthier, balanced person. This blog will not be strictly about weight loss, nor about food, or any other single topic. Just a document of my efforts.
Initially I wanted to keep this blog private. I hope to write about some things that are very sensitive issues for me, and I didn’t like the idea of other people reading that. But, if those researchers in Roseto are right, maybe having a more open dialogue with others will be helpful. And if I can ever inspire someone, like Andie inspired me, hey, that would be fantastic. Additionally, if I amass even a single reader, I would love input, advice, recipes, criticisms, jokes, well wishes…anything.
So, here we go…